Sometimes i do wonder what kind of an Indian am I. Generally there has been this perception by many westerners or even other Asian ethnic that Indians are very traditional and filled with culture.It is true but are Indians really like that now?.I know i am not.Maybe many years ago,Indians always were very traditional.As far as i know,most Indian women then were not allowed to even talk to men.There were less love marriages then surely but look at the Indians girls now.I am certain the boys are no better but we were always like that since decades ago but girls have drastically changed.A perfect example would be my family.My dad did have girlfriends and stuffs.His parents never actually restricted him from going out and having fun at night clubs when he was young but my mum never actually had any of those things.She was always at home and her parents were so strict that they never even allowed her to attend music class because there was a guy in that class.Many would debate that this is probably sexism but i don’t think other people like the Malays and Chinese were that strict with their children.In contrast today half of the Bangsar night clubs are filled with Indian girls.They even outnumber the guys.Many of these girls are teenagers.How drastically times have changed in a couple of decades.Do Indian families still have tradition and culture like many people perceive we have?.We do but its just that many teenagers these days are rebellious and never listen to their parents anymore.The parents are also at fault surely for going too hard on their children when mistakes have been done.Surely any teenager would go against their parents if he or she gets bombarded for little things.That is in the nature of the young blood.I am considered lucky that my mum has given me the liberty to do what i want but surely she knows that i know what is right and wrong when it comes to life.Probably experiences from her childhood has helped me in a way and she doesn’t want to do the mistakes of her parents.Definitely I am Indian and have surely have tradition and culture from my forefathers but its just that Indians have evolved since decades ago and we are even more open minded than many other asian ethnic.It still remains a debate but i am lucky that i have parents that allowed me to explore life with freedom.It is a rarity but i can assure myself that i am Indian after all.

As i was looking into my computer today, my mind drifted back a couple of years.People always tend to go with the flow when it comes to changes in life but does anyone really know why our lives change?.It certainly won’t suprise me not many actually know the reason,so while staring at my computer for about1 hour i decided to take a walk down memory lane.To be really honest,even i can’t remember most parts of my childhood.There are some which actually stand out for me like the first day of school and my last day of school life.i know generally for many out there,school starts in standard 1 but rather unusually for me my real school life started only in form 1.Not that my early childhood was traumatic or anything but i just feel that the ups and downs of school life,the friends,the memories and love all came after i entered secondary school.I don’t really remember my first day in high school but i had this gut feeling in me that it was going to be a hell of a journey. Today it really seems a long time since that day but as i’m writing now,i know that i have come a long way since that day.Changes have been there for me certainly but i kind of wonder if i am the same person that entered a whole new world some 6 years back.As i said earlier,many people tend to go with the flow that they hardly ever realise the changes within.Even people around them don’t realise it.Physical changes is something everyone goes through but what about mentally and do they still believe in the principlas that may have had that time.I do stress the word may because i do know most people don’t actually have principals at that very young age.Iknow i did have certain principals like not consuming alcohol and smoking at all although the latter is the only principal that i have manage to uphold so far.What about my mind set?It has certainly changed due to maturity and all but i don’t think i would have done certain things then if i were to go back 

in time.Were these changes pre planned so that we are who we are now or are those just our bad decisions and good memories that make us what we are now?When it comes to myself,i don’t believe in the pre planned nonsense and i tend to lean to the latter.I have made bad decisions at times and even good ones that have really changed the path i supposed to be headed.Its not to say that i don’t believe in GOD or anything but i  don’t believe when most people say that GOD determines our destination in life.I just think we are the reason why bad and good things happen to us.Our decisions are to be questioned not GOD.Both good and bad decisions can turn out to be a positive thing but really depends on us and whether we want to change for the good or the bad.School has made me make bad decisions and good decisions but i know that what i am today is because of those decisions and i will never regret anything that i have done because i am content with what i am today and thats what really matters.